Why I Write and Share What I Do.

Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be perfect and complete, needing nothing. James 1:2-4 NLT

A lot of people have asked or wondered while reading my blog or hearing me talk, why I share what I do about my experience. Or how I share so openly about such a delicate subject/experience.

Well, my answer is: If I kept my experience locked inside of me I would most likely be living in a constant state of denial. As well as why let something bad turn me bitter, angry, inward and so forth when I can and have the power to turn my loss into some sort of gain for the better. Genesis 50:20 You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives.
With that being said, I hope that my loss would open peoples eyes against abortion. I shared photos of Malachi on my Facebook Page yesterday and he was clearly a person and had a heart beat. Let God be the judge of whether a child should not live or not. We had the choice to create that tiny human, but we do not have the right in my opinion to chose death for that little person!! Every person is a person no matter how small. ~Dr. Seuss. Everyone has a purpose from the moment they were created in their mothers womb!! I can't deny that now. Malachi was never an 'IT'. I loathe that word!! No one is ever an 'IT'!! If you think that you're an idiot!! (Soap box)

Yes, bad things happen to good people all of the time. Why does God let it happen? And so forth. I don't try to tackle those questions as much anymore. It's pretty useless. It's called life, God said we'd have struggles of many kinds, we'd suffer, etc...  1 Peter 1:6 In all this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. We don't have to let those things turn us into an ugly person no one wants to be around. Yes, I still grieve and get mad. I don't blame God to this day. I thank Him! What?! You heard me right! I THANK Him!! God gave me the GIFT of Malachi, I may not have him in the flesh with me right now. But you bet he's waiting in Heaven to meet his family some day. I have a treasure in Heaven far beyond what this world could have ever given me. When I get there, it's going to be better than Christmas!!

I realize many people don't or can't look at things in such a positive light as myself. I don't expect everyone to.
Hopefully this answered some questions. :)